Day one of mouse patrol is uneventful. I see no evidence of a mouse, but T swears she saw one. Okay I can do this, I can . Just gotta build up my courage. The exterminator should be here tomorrow. I am so hungry, but so afraid to go into the kitchen ( where the last sighting was) ..Hey I could be onto something. Kind of like a fear factor, mouse diet... I need sleep.

I'm losing my hair. Of course not all at once. Little by little. Day by day. If it's going to fall out why can't it just all fall out? Then I could call it a day, go get a wig or some weave. No it has to torture me, damn near bald in one spot and healthy in another. I could not imagine why I would be missing or losing hair. People say it's stress, but none of my problems are new. I've been dealing with them, or so I thought. I guess I have somehow supressed them and now they are coming out along with my hair. Ain't that some shit? Why couldn't it come out in the form of weight loss? I wish I could sleep, but I think there is a mouse in the house. No sleeping going on here. I'm scared to death. Why did he have to come here? As if I don't have enough crap on my plate. Now along with my spotty head I can add bags under my eyes. And the hits just keep on coming...

My father is having surgery today to have something called "floaters" removed from his eye. I can't sleep!. I worry about him and my mother. Perhaps too much. When I called today he told me that I didn't need to come to the hospital. As if I could just go on about my day knowing that someone is poking around in his eye. Sure...that'll happen. I was angry with him, he sort of forgot to mention the surgery at all. If it weren't for my sister I would never know anything. When I talk to them everything is just fine. Parents...counting my blessings...

I don't consider myself a conservative. I like to think of myself as open minded. There is a 23 year old that is interested in me. Being 36, I will not date anyone under 30. That is just too much for me. 23 is completely out of the question. I know all the age is nothing but a number arguments. All of them are valid. If that is where your comfort level takes you and you are happy then I'm happy for you. It's just not for me. Am I destined to be single forever?

I read an article that suggested that in order to keep the divorce rate down women shouId share men. The article stated that the first woman could pick the second, perhaps someone she knew, like a best friend. That way you would know all about her and the two of you could keep him happy enough so that he wouldn't need a third. She said everyone would be happy. Physically, emotionally and financially. Of course I was sickened as I read it. I wondered if women could really buy into this. Then I watched change of heart yesterday. The fellow let his girlfriend know that he was seeing her and her best friend at the top of the show...Since they hooked up. He then went on a date with a woman. He kissed and groped all night long, then topped the night off in a hotel room with a friend of his and another woman she called. ( But they just talked all night). He insulted his girlfriend the entire show. So I'm thinking..SKID MARKS she's dropping him! Noooo, even after all this she says" Well even though she was sucking on his lips. I don't think anyone should do that but me.So I'm staying together." Hello, he just told your simple behind he's sleeping with your best friend. What?...What?!!!!...She had the nerve to be disappointed that he dropped her. The article came back to me then. I guess for some that would work..Damn, it just makes me wanna holla!

I'm a little more than determined to win the Tom Joyner's Fantastic Voyage cruise. All I have to do is find a way to corrupt everyone else's entry. So far I have stuck to my diet; although I am really craving some Chip Ahoys. Missy Elliott has been an inspiration to me. She looks damn good. People are hating ( of course) saying she has some work done. Hell if I could afford it I would too. I have been looking into chemical peels. Don't get it twisted ,I love the color of my skin. I'm not trying to look like Micheal Jackson, I just want an even tone. I have to read up a little more on it. I'm taking a half day today , a plane has crashed at the airport. I may not get what I need to get done, I have to go that way and I know how Charlotte over reacts to everything. It looks bad though, I hope no one was killed. Sending up prayers...

I braided my girls hair and now I think my wrist will fall off. I'm going to the doctor soon . I just don't want to hear...Wiz moment... No bad news. Speaking of hair, I noticed another gray yesterday. I also decided to trim my hair myself ( being cheap never works) I now look like I am trying to bring Salt and Pepper's "whop look" ( Push It ) back, strange thing is it looked even when I cut it. I'm on a quest to lose 20 pounds, I'm taking a cruise this year ( trying to be like Stella) and get the groove back. Why is it when you are dieting every food commercial looks wonderful, and tasty? The bad thing is I'm noticing the food in commercials for cars too. Even the foods I don't eat! Staying away from the TV for awhile. Am I the only one who remembers the show " Get Christie Love?" Her catch phrase was ' Freeze sugar'. Anyway she ( Teresa Graves) died last year. I loved that show.

2002 .From beginning to end it was a hell of a year. Through the good and bad, highs and lows, I made it. Wow! I made it! I hope each of you take time to appreciate what you have. Live, Laugh and Love...Happy New Year!


... Yeah, I think to Myself What A Wonderful World... at least sometimes.

Women... At another WTE session I was told that I was shallow.{ lacking in depth of knowledge, thought or feeling} . Me.. Just because I said I wouldn't date a man who wasn't tall, educated, black, had all his teeth and spoke English. Moi? I was offended. Yes, I have more on the list but it's called a preference. Does that mean if the man doesn't fit what I perceive as an ideal mate I won't date him ? Well...yes. What is the point? But ,that does not make me shallow. Why should I settle for someone that I am not attracted to? Forget what you heard..looks do matter, I'm not talking about cute or ugly because everyones perception is different .I'm just talking about the the physical. Whether it's the eyes or ass something physical attracts you. I cannot tell what type of beautiful mind, personality,etc. you have from a distance. No one can. I'm attracted to tall men. So I don't date short men. That is my choice. That does not mean that I become violently ill or obnoxious when a short man approaches me.Not at all. There are millions of people who would not date me, for whatever reason. I don't think that makes them shallow. Crazy and confused..yes.. My point is people settle too much nowadays. I won't. I like what I like...
I'm also finding that I am one of few who believe that a man who is involved ( married or otherwise is off limits). How sad is this?????Listen girlfriends...I don't know what's going on with your esteem; head or whatever that makes you choose to play second fiddle. But turns go around and around.

So...I didn't need 315 million anyway. Poverty builds character! I had a very good Christmas.Every year I'm reminded of how many comedians I have in my family. Some of them have really missed their call.My niece who sounds alot like a Muppet has learned to spell her name. So as you can guess, I watched her do it. Over and over again. The thing is, I watched and cheered each time as if it was the first. I still say kids are amazing. Maybe...just maybe, I'll adopt someday.For now I'm grateful for the constant laughter I get from my brother and his children. Watching him go through raising them is payback enough for me . ( He was a real pain in my behind) For all the blessings thank you Jehovah.. Thank you.