Thursday, May 22, 2003

RuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN! Thank you , thank you, thank you! Finally! I'm so glad he won. Congrats man.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

I have a friend whose heart I know is good, but he is so full of pain and hurt that he has become unbearable to be around. I see it. It consumes him and when I am around him , it consumes me. And I do care about him and I don't want anything but good things for him, but he is toxic. This is a toxic friendship and I have to end it; I feel terriblle when I am around him. All of my other friends don't want him anywhere near them, they all say " I don't know how you could stand his ass!" But, when I met him I decided to make him my friend knowing he had " funny" ways. But he was never " funny" acting to me personally. So, being the optimist I thought maybe...Hell... I don't know what I thought. I do know I cannot be around his negativity anymore. How is it possible to never see any good in anything? It's sad. I can't find it in my heart to tell him the truth. I think I may be the only friend he has left. Sometimes you just want to burn a bridge. Blow it up. Never look back. But you don't because at some crucial moment in your life you may have to cross that bridge again. So instead I am avoiding this particular bridge. Going all the way around Robin's Nest to do so. I hate that.

In other news...I'm off to New York for a few days. Bright Lights, Real City here I come. I miss my peeps, I miss real food. I need this... Ruben sang his behind off tonight. Do the damn thing boy!