Stormy Weather

I was working as a leasing agent after Hurricane Katrina. My complex along with so many others decided to open our community to some of the many families who had to relocate here after the tragic event. I will never forget the looks of hopelessness and lost that so many had. Nor will I forget those who were just thankful to be alive. They didn't care that they had lost their whole material lives or that they were thrust into an unknown new world. Just grateful that God spared them and their families and for the chance to begin again. As Issac looms in on the Gulf coast again, I pray for these families. I pray that the levees hold and we do not have a repeat of Katrina. I pray God covers them. I also pray that if disaster is to be that the gov't does what's its suppose to this time.

In other news... CYA is in full effect at work. It should have been all along  but you know  me always giving people the benefit of the doubt. I  no longer want to fight,what's the point. I just know what I know and there is no coming back from that.

President Obama 2012!!!! Be blessed ya'll.

Gotta Git Up

Vacation is coming and I can't wait. I like my job, I do. But, if I don't get away soon there is going to be some furniture movin'!!! I need this much deserved break. I'm going with braids again because I hear FL is hell hot and I do not want to be dealing with hair and heat, I know that would not be cute. My dad needs this most of all. He needs to get out of the house and enjoy himself. He needs to try to live again, without mom. The other day he hinted to me moving back home. That's not going to happen, I will make more time to spend with him, because I know he gets lonely. But, I need my space, my sanity depends on it. Hopefully he will understand that. I love him to pieces, but no can do.

Be Ok

I really didn't want this. I walked away from my previous job and got on with my life. Moved on. Didn't look back. I was trying to relax my mind for a minute and then jump back in renewed.

You want to bumble with the bee huh?

Like him... Every time I try to get out!...

Basically, I received a call from one of my former employees and it seems he has a legal problem with the company. ( A very good one I might add). He has hired an attorney and it seems that my name has come up several times. I had no idea at all that he was having this problem and when he called me ( out of the blue) I let him know that. It seems that my name has been included in all kinds of things that I had no knowledge of, nor control over. It's a case of " the shit falling in your lap" once your gone. Needless to say all of this talk of lawyers and suing has caused me to get calls from everyone. Even those who had no reason to terminate me.

( But, I don't answer those calls).

And now, I have a meeting with the president of the company.

Hmm...

"Behold, I give you authority to trample on serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy and nothing shall by any means harm you" Luke 10:19

sangin'



Imma be ok
Imma be ok
I'll survive, i'll be fine, i wont cry no way
Imma be ok
Imma be ok
Dont you talk, i'll move on

Sail On

I can tell when the devil is really trying to get the best of me. I'm not letting him though. Last week my former employers decided not to pay me my final check. Yeah, they are playing with me. But I am using every ounce of strength to rise above. To not become Wanda ( She is a damn fool). Because, they are messing with my MONEY!

Thankfully, the writing was on the wall and I planned for this. Don't get me wrong, I want my MONEY, I just don't need it right now. Anyway,long before this happened I planned my vacation so I am going on with my plans. I'm looking forward to this cruise because I need to go somewhere beautiful and relax. I know I'll have to get back to the grind soon, so this will be my chance. I found a really inexpensive flight but I'm wondering why I have to visit every airport in the country on my return flight? For $115.oo I can't complain too much huh?

I call myself working out. Being I've been told of all the pounds I will gain on the cruise. I still hate working out. Gotta do it though. Hopefully the bod will be camera ready and I can share my adventure with you all. If you don't see pics of me only locations then, you know whats up.

I kept promising myself if I ever got the time I would finish my book. Now I have all the time in the world and nothing. I only have four maybe five chapters to have a complete manuscript. So far I haven't typed a word. I know how I want to finish I just wasn't motivated to do it. But, now that I'm managing to let some of the anger go it will be better.

I'm coming back to myself. I'm not one to stay down too long anyway. That's just not me. Thank you for your prayers, they are always appreciated.

So Pissed Off

Ok. It has taken me this long to come here and write this. I was terminated from my job two weeks ago. Why??? I don't know really. I know what they said I was terminated for was bullshit. I have had to fire people before. After taking the proper disciplinary actions I pull the person into my office. I tell them exactly why their relationship with the company has to end. This is not what happened in my case.

I was nitpicked until I felt like punching her in the face.Even the witness she bought with her was looking like what the hell are you doing? I finally had to ask her why are you here? WTF!!!

I was leaving anyway, I think I am so pissed because they got me before I could get them. You know, you always want to leave on your own terms. You want to be able to do your best Dominique Devereaux impersonation as you walk away. You want to be able to say in so many words " Take this job and shove it!."

I know another thing that is getting me is although I had to go through unimaginable bullshit, I did my job. I did it better than any else who has held the position. Yeah I can pop my collar on that. Because it's a fact.

So, I'm pissed yall. Trying not to let the devil get the best of me. Because right now I have some rather vengeful shit going through my mind. Being at home will do that. ( I have cleaned and rearranged enough I think).

So send up some prayers for your girl to get past this. Let it roll off. To remember that when a door closes another will open. And that this too shall pass...

Party Up

Certain things just come naturally for me. People do things for me I say thank you, when I ask for things I say please. When I walk into a room full of people I speak. I say good morning/evening.Often you will find a smile on my face. That's just me, I'm not a frowner. I don't cause trouble, I'm not "catty". I don't buy into drama. I think I treat people fairly.

So anyway, the whole point of this post was to get off some steam because I was threatened with bodily harm this week and called a nigger.( Yes, to my face) Here I am doing my job and I have to put up with this. Okay, I know people can get heated when faced with certain situations. I understand that. But don't shoot the messenger. Especially when the messenger is me Me, who has been nothing but fair to you. Me,who has sat down and counseled you. Me,who has warned you numerous times. Me, who although I have never shown it, will become a damn fool and show you all kinds of ghetto if you put your hands on me. It was almost like an outer body experience for me. I'm not used to this shit,yeah I know some of these Caucasians I deal with may think it. They may even say it when I leave. But to say it tomy face? Then tell me that you will kick my ass? I felt like I was in a ROOTS episode.WTF??? All this southern hospitality is getting the best of me. I swear it took everything in me not to react.

In my line of work I come across so many different types of people.I don't give into the preconcieved notions some have. I give everyone a chance because I truly believe it's not where you have been but, where you are going, I only ask my people to challenge themselves. Most times, I am recieved warmly. But then there are those who just don't want anything more. They are content to stay where they are because it is all they have known. It kills me when they say," Well this is the ghetto." So many believe that because of their economic situation certain behavior is tolerated. Or even expected. Sometimes I just want to scream like Larry Fishburne at the end of School Daze, WAKE UP! Damn, it's 2007.

We didn't go to blows. Although it really seemed like she wanted to. I refused to go there. I refused to stoop to that level, not there on my job. Hell Naaaaw. All that talk and she never passed a lick. I think because my non-reaction to her words and behavior, really left her clueless. I remained the professional. But, I'd be lying if I didn't tell you that I was thinking..@5 p.m.'Meet me outside, Meet me outside, Meet me outside'!

Get To This

No more blogger at work.No more anything. I'm surprised I can get the Yellow Pages. As if I have time when I come home and read all the blogs I do.Man, why is it that many have to suffer because of the few? Why can't they just cut the fool off who downloaded the internet porn. How out of control are you that you can't stay away from porn at work? It's creepy.What is really going on in your life? And why isn't he fired anyway? He was given a final warning. That is bullshit. Let me try that. Let me get on Ebay for a couple of hours and management will make a special trip to escort my ass off the premises.

I'm in love with this guy. Big Mike from Making the Band 4. He made the band. I've liked him from the start. Not because he is from Gaffney N.C. I could care less. It might as well be Nutbush. I like Mike because the dude can blow. He never gave up although Diddy was riding him hard about the weight. Dude lost 50 pounds. He did the damn thing. Diddy didn't pick Bryan H. though, I think it was out of spite. He made the boy cut his hair ( locs that he was growing for 4 years) and then still cut him.This guy could sing too. I liked this season more than the others.

Did anyone hear Nephew Tommy on the Steve Harvey Morning Show today? He called this woman pretending to be a store security guard asking her to come in because she is suspected of stealing. I damn near wrecked my car, I was laughing so hard. This dude is funny. Please tune in if you haven't.

My doctor gave me good news..SEE...I told y'all the DEVIL IS A LIAR!!!

I have a two day budget meeting.Yes,I'm packing again...ughhhhhhhh!

Do You

I do not like potlucks at work. This time someone came up with the bright idea to include clients. As I look at the spread, I am associating dishes with people for instance Catwoman (hmm..three kitties) bought a spinach dip.She has enough cat hair on her chair to make a sweater.( I've seen pictures of her cat walking walking on her counters)...I'm good, thanks. Then there is Chatty-Patty whom I am sure cannot pay attention to details long enough to make this whatever this is. It's supposed to be potato salad...I don't think so. She put apples in it too?...Yum. Did you think that up yourself? I want to smack her for this one. Youngsta(26),bought meatballs, they are floating in oil. I don't think missy drained them . I mean I like her and all but, uh there is no way in hell that I am going to eat those greasy meatballs. One client bought cabbage, Ms.Nasty, I have this motto,If you don't wash your ass...need I say anymore? Another made a cake. It really does look good, but no.Another made baked-beans and even if I did eat them I wouldn't today because I know they may not all be beans. I bought paper products and drinks because I know some people feel like I do. I just cannot eat every ones food.It's nothing personal. My stomach is not made of cast iron and somethings are not meant for me to ingest.. Mr. Comedian bought chips,thank God! Wait is that Bojangles??? I will take my chances with that.

You Got Me

I know, I have been commenting on blogs sporadically please forgive me I have a lot going on this month.Since taking this position 8 months ago I have been enlightened on a few things. I really undercut myself on the pay, but if you don't know, you don't.I will take that blame for not doing my homework. There were 4 people in this position in the last year. Hmm,things that make you say WTF? Can everyone be wrong?
No they can't. I understand why the ran away screaming. But on other days when a client stops in and says something to brighten my day. It seems worth it. Wendy loves the kids. Anyway, never the quitter I am hangin'in.

In other news...I have blogged about the relationship my brother and I had for most of our lives. I contribute it now to the fact that we are both stubborn and spoiled. But last week my brother confided in me some things he wanted his big sisters opinion on. It touched me. All this time, I thought the boy needed meds. Turns out,he doesn't. Ain't God good?

I got some bad news from the doctor last week. For a very short while I was down. But baby I'm back!. So I am saying and TYPING aloud. THE DEVIL IS A LIAR! I have things to do.

Can R please stop releasing gospel songs around his court dates? If he was stepping in the name of God he wouldn't have these problems.Nuff said...

I'd Like To Teach The World To Sing

- In perfect harmony...

I like American Idol, I have been watching since the beginning. This year is a complete mess. Some of the people they sent home they should call back.Why did it have to be guys against girls? Couldn't it have been all women, or here's an idea... the best singers! Now last night they sent a young man home, given he did forget the words. But if he forgot ALL the words he still sounded better than the young man they let stay.

I just wonder what people are thinking when they vote sometimes. When I vote, I vote for the best singer.
I just had to get that off my chest...

What's going on people, sorry I've been missing. I have been very busy. I am still reading I just can't always post.

When will they stop talking about Anna? I'm sorry she died, I feel for her family but dayammmmn. What did this woman do that requires so much airtime? They didn't devote this much time to Rosa Parks, Coretta King. And Maury Povich can tell you if you're the daddy in 1 hour, what is taking them so long?

Today a little boy( around 10) told his mother to shut up. It was so funny, I mean what he said to his mother was not funny. The faces of all the black people in earshot was funny as hell. She was embarrassed, and her face was so red. I couldn't feel sorry for her though, she brought it on herself.

We had a fire at work. People will move then won't they? Thankfully everyone is fine. The firemen said that we could go back inside but it was still too smokey. I don't know what he was talking about, I guess breathing that crap all the time makes you immune.

I need some serious me time...

Home

-When I think of HOME I think of a place where there is love overflowing

How true this verse is for me. I don't ever want to visit the state of Ohio in the winter ever again. It was just too damn cold. I think this was some sort of test. If I made through this week; I could keep my job. You know what kills me? When people say "Oh you're from NY you're used to this". What is that about? I live in NC for a reason.It's as if people think NYers have a thermal layer of skin or something. They're immune to cold weather.. In Ohio they have freezing FOG!! I have never heard that phrase in my life.

My roomie was a native of Kentucky. I thought she was going to pass out,she was so cold. She packed for summer as far as I could tell and that weather was tearing her ass up. She was a cute, blue Popsicle. She also had this twang that was put on and driving me crazy. And she just went on and on about (Black people the best thing since sliced bread!) She even told me about the black caretaker her children had and how they just loved their mammy! I kid you not. Can you say WTF for me out loud? That was it for me. I needed to go...it was for the best.

I think the trainer could have been a little more patient with those who did not understand what the hell she was zipping through at the moment. She was more of the type that said it once, and you had better get it because she was moving on. This woman didn't even stop when one of my co-workers notebook went offline! She also had the tendency to try an answer your question before you got it out of your mouth ( Or formed it in your head). I hate that, and I was really trying (HARD) to be cool, but I had to SAY something. I was thinking daaayummm, this is ridiculous it was as if she didn't want us to ask questions, because it would throw a monkey wrench in her schedule. On the last day she said " Well we made it and no one wanted to kill me." Don't bet your life on it honey. I know my facial expression screamed I wanted to slap you a time or two!!!. Thankfully I was able to grasp most of what she taught. What I didn't get I will just have to learn on my own.

This has been a long as week for me. I have never been happier to be in North Carolina.

Cool'n Out

My first full week and I must say things are going well. All the drama of the last week seems to have vanished. I actually feel like we have accomplished something!It's the weekeeeeend baby! I'm ready to chill.

You all know Grey's Anatomy is my favorite show. Yesterdays show was GREAT!!!! I'm just disappointed in the media the show has been getting lately. The characters had words on the set. Somebody called someone a name , someone supposedly got choked out. These people probably spend more time with each other than their families. They probably get on each others nerves. Now some groups ( Gay rights) want the accused Isiah Washington, to be fired. Isn't this a little extreme? No one wants to be called out of their name, I understand that. But had he used the politically correct term, would there be so much hoopla? I don't know. Anyway, now Isiah claims to be seeking counseling. Give me a break. Is there counseling to keep you from calling homosexuals, faggots? Sure there is.That Kramer dude is seeking counseling too...Get my meaning?..

I'm venting... Having a MEAN OL' LION Wiz moment.I know that the shit is soon to hit the fan. I know this because there are many changes taking place. The changes are coming from headquarters. I had overtime this week that I won't be getting because I was made to leave early. Everyone was made to leave who had overtime, except V. Who I am beginning to believe has something really juicy on N. Hell he must have pictures, audio and video tape! I mean I could understand if I was the only one complaining. But the entire office! C'mon damn. He even had the nerve to tell her he didn't like working with certain types of Mexicans. Had I said something like that, I would have been fired a second after it came from mylips. I would have to be absolutely out of my mind to listen to the double talk coming from my boss' mouth. "Everything is fine. No one is jeopardy of losing their job. Were all safe here." But in the same breath say we need to find a way to quickly generate more business! I am at the point now where it's a struggle to go in everyday. I should never be at that point, no one should. The shit is getting too deep.