This is the very first christmas that I will spend without my parents. I can honestly say that I have had 36 very good ones with them. They are visiting baby sis in Philly. It feels strange though, knowing that I will not see them tomorrow. Thankfully my brother and his family are here and I have good friends to full my day But... I guess the little girl in me wants to be with my mommy and daddy on Christmas day.

If I had three wishes what would they be? The main ones come to mind Love, Health, and Money the old standards. Everyone has seen a movie or knows a story where the wishes a person really wants never comes to pass. There is always some sort of trickery going on...Does anyone ever get all three?You'll find that they are healthy as a horse, paid in full but , by themselves. Or they are in love, paid and sickly. Or they're healthly and in love... but couldn't afford a date to Mickey D's with a coupon. Or just for a special bonus you find those with none of the above. If someone claims to have all three what compromises have they made in their lives to acheive them? The man is the mirror is a harsh reality, to some. The saying "Be careful, what you wish for, you just may get it"is a warning people. With that in mind, I will forget about the wish list and opt for prayer. Never any loop holes there. Merry Christmas everyone. Blessings

Well here I am again... I have to be optimistic that my parenting skills are working for the best. My patience is really being tried. I pray that I become more patient as this goes.Because I'm feeling Madear-ish. My nephew is indeed a challenge but what in life worthwhile isn't? My sister is doing well and my family here is fine. Blessings every where I turn...

So many wonderful things going on in my life right now. Just two short months ago I was going to bail out. Give up! Call it a day and head North as fast as I could. But it worked out for the best that I stay in Charlotte. I have alot to be thankful for. I'm goinng to test those parenting skills I swear I have. Me, who knew. Not a new born or toddler. My nerves are too bad for that.. I'm going to raise my nephew. I also started a new business, forget what you heard...Working for self is it. I'm loving life right now.

I was having the most wonderful time conversing with a man I met today. I thought, finally here is a man that has it together. He's not married, gay or young enough to be my child. He's intelligent, and fine. Then in the middle of my sentence he interrupted me and said. " So what size bra do you wear?" WTF? This is not a young man, not a man that has been locked away. Sad. My thirteen year old nephew has better sense than this. What is wrong with people? I didn't even bother to finish my sentence. The struggle continues...

How much can a woman take?...First Ben and J. Now Miranda and Robert. Yes she threw it all away. I'm shocked, shocked I tell you. In reality would a woman give up a man who seems so perfect ? Would a woman give up a tall, handsome, sexy,doctor ( For the Knicks I might add) To be with her baby's daddy who seems to be none of that? Fiction.

Blair is looking really good these days. I haven't watched an episode twice in a minute...but i had to see him again. I watched a documentary on the events of September 11th. It made me think of the exact moment I heard the plane hit the first tower. I must have stood in the same spot for nearly an hour. Dazed, amazed, confused. I called all the friends and family I could in New york. Me and Peter J. stuck it out for nearly twenty-four hours straight. How many field trips did I take to the towers while I was in school? ..It still hurts. I think it always will. God bless the victims and their families.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Now that I have that out. I feel better!

Everytime I come to this site the format has changed. Anyway I went to Philly with my sister. She is moving back there next month. I decided early on that I would not do the walking thing. I decided that we should drive everywhere. Mistake..big one. Obviously, Guido and the boys are in charge of parking and they mean to take every dime. We went to a mall ( strange mall with no parking in Center City) It cost 4.00 to park for a 1/2 hour and 4.00 each additonal half. What??? Okay, perhaps if you are a superhero ( MallMan- able to browse and buy in a single bound) you can get in and out of a mall in thrity minutes. Needless to say... I was walking again. I also realized that summer is in the north,maybe the south will get it next year. After the monsoon.

My sister turned 26 and I feel old as dirt. Yes she has blossomed into a lovely young woman and all that....but this is the kid that I used to carry around on my hip. ..Wow. Time really does fly....I can remember carrying her like it was yesterday. I guess that's a plus...I still have my mind.