Okay...Even if you absolutely hate R&B you have to admit that Ruben is the very best singer in the competition. This iss not just an opinion, it is a fact. The man has sang the hell out of every genre that has been presented. So why was he in the bottom two tonight? I will tell you why, because America is full of haters. They hate the fact that a overweight, Black man could be an "American Idol". Actually I don't really believe Ruben cares whether he wins or not because he knows he has skills. But if this competition is based on being the best singer then it shouldn't let America vote. Americans are caught up on appearance. They can not fathom this obese man as an idol. That is a slap in the face of the very fabric of this great nation. Did anyone happen to see the Marines face It said.... "Yeah thanks america, but I don't deserve it". HE was crying....Arrrgh.

What exactly is crazy? I find myself asking that question after having a long and interesting conversation with friends and family. Personal expectations are just that...personal, so if my belief leads me to think that you are cuckoo for cocoa puffs, are you?. What you may find over the top or offensive, I think is just fine and vice-versa. So who decides what's crazy,deraanged? Perhaps we have become a society that uses the term so loosely that we really don't know anymore? Perhaps we have lost sight of what crazy is because Martin (haha) is crazy. But...So is cutting off the heads of your babies and then going to have sex. Or at least it is to me. Now I say that these people are not fit to live. For some, that statement is crazy.

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Carmen is gone! Now we can get on with the real singers! Wiz moment...Brand new day!

I haven't been home this week. I've been spreading myself thin between friends. One thing they will never be able to say is I wasn't there for them.I love my girls all of them. Some can't understand why I love the others ... but I do. I long for my own bed, kinda... In other news I chatted with a seemingly very nice man yesterday. Even flirted a little. Finally someone interesting. Usually when I find this they are either married, gay or somehow otherwise (TAKEN). I look at most of the cats I chat with online like prison inmates. You know always saying what you want to hear. I don't let their words phase me. But... I'm being optimistic.

Wiz moment...Don't you ever bring me..no bad news..American Idol..Carmen gets to stay...Kim has to go. I don't know what America is listening to. I say if someone is consistently in the bottom three. They need to go. Carmen was lucky tonight. She knows in her heart of hearts that she should not be there. Not as a singer. Yes she is a pretty girl. But come on people, did you hear her last night? Or the week before? Or the week before? Hell Simon picked her and he knows it was a mistake...Arrgh!
In other news MJ is gone...again. This time I think it's for good. I will really miss his moves . Oh boy raised the bar and changed the game forever. Thanks for the memories again Mike. You're still a bad man!

I tuned into the Married by America finale, mostly because I could not find my remote. I must say it was something. There were two couples. One almost in love and the other I believe in love with love. One young lady, was willing to marry a man that she knew did not love her. Not like a feeling she had , he actually told her." I do not have those feelings". Still she pressed on, the guy finally told her he could not marry her at the alter. She was shocked. Well duh! , I wanted to be sad for her.I did, because the poor thing looked like she would shatter into a million pieces. But I couldn't. I couldn't understand how she was head over heels in love with a man she met 1 month ago. I know it happens but...it hasn't happen to me so I cannot understand it. Anyway both couples gave up the half million dollar purse, because neither said I do. At that point I was like damn...I'm sure that would have paid for an annulment.

The wind done gone..... Why can't people just say what they mean and mean what they say? I'm looking forward to working with these kids.I've always been a counselor of sorts anyway. I might as well get paid for it. All they need is a little guidence , patience and inspiration. Don't we all? My sister is on the right track again, thank you God. If ever anyone deserved to be ridiculously happy it's her. My grandmother is feeling much better now too. Maybe I thought the wind was for me, but it was for them, but its FAM so it's good...all good.

American Idol is full of crap!. Let me elaborate. I agree someone that is an Idol should be an upstanding citizen.Someone that young people can admire. That is in a world called "perfect". Now let's just look at a few of the so called idols we have. Elvis, Micheal, Whitney,Ozzie. Serious problems here. The pipes saved their asses. Let's go back a little... Frank Sinatra and his crew weren't exactly angels. Let's fast forward R. Kelly, and Eminem. The scandal that has surrounded these people have not hindered their talent nor hurt record sales. So what does Corey's impending legal battle have to do with his ability to sell records? Not a damn thing. Perhaps the producers should review what types America has chosen to call idols, divas, kings, queens etc....Let these people do their damn thing .... My mother is my hero!