So many wonderful things going on in my life right now. Just two short months ago I was going to bail out. Give up! Call it a day and head North as fast as I could. But it worked out for the best that I stay in Charlotte. I have alot to be thankful for. I'm goinng to test those parenting skills I swear I have. Me, who knew. Not a new born or toddler. My nerves are too bad for that.. I'm going to raise my nephew. I also started a new business, forget what you heard...Working for self is it. I'm loving life right now.

I was having the most wonderful time conversing with a man I met today. I thought, finally here is a man that has it together. He's not married, gay or young enough to be my child. He's intelligent, and fine. Then in the middle of my sentence he interrupted me and said. " So what size bra do you wear?" WTF? This is not a young man, not a man that has been locked away. Sad. My thirteen year old nephew has better sense than this. What is wrong with people? I didn't even bother to finish my sentence. The struggle continues...

How much can a woman take?...First Ben and J. Now Miranda and Robert. Yes she threw it all away. I'm shocked, shocked I tell you. In reality would a woman give up a man who seems so perfect ? Would a woman give up a tall, handsome, sexy,doctor ( For the Knicks I might add) To be with her baby's daddy who seems to be none of that? Fiction.

Blair is looking really good these days. I haven't watched an episode twice in a minute...but i had to see him again. I watched a documentary on the events of September 11th. It made me think of the exact moment I heard the plane hit the first tower. I must have stood in the same spot for nearly an hour. Dazed, amazed, confused. I called all the friends and family I could in New york. Me and Peter J. stuck it out for nearly twenty-four hours straight. How many field trips did I take to the towers while I was in school? ..It still hurts. I think it always will. God bless the victims and their families.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Now that I have that out. I feel better!

Everytime I come to this site the format has changed. Anyway I went to Philly with my sister. She is moving back there next month. I decided early on that I would not do the walking thing. I decided that we should drive everywhere. Mistake..big one. Obviously, Guido and the boys are in charge of parking and they mean to take every dime. We went to a mall ( strange mall with no parking in Center City) It cost 4.00 to park for a 1/2 hour and 4.00 each additonal half. What??? Okay, perhaps if you are a superhero ( MallMan- able to browse and buy in a single bound) you can get in and out of a mall in thrity minutes. Needless to say... I was walking again. I also realized that summer is in the north,maybe the south will get it next year. After the monsoon.

My sister turned 26 and I feel old as dirt. Yes she has blossomed into a lovely young woman and all that....but this is the kid that I used to carry around on my hip. ..Wow. Time really does fly....I can remember carrying her like it was yesterday. I guess that's a plus...I still have my mind.

A little girl that I used to babysit died. She was three, she drowned in the bathtub. Words cannot begin to express all of the emotions that are running through my head. I only have to believe that Jehovah wanted her to be in a better place. If you are reading this and you have children.. cherish them, watch them every second that you can. They are a precious gift from God and should never be taken for granted.

I have been a die hard Lakers fan for as long as I have been interested in basketball. Now there is talk of Karl Malone joining this team. I guess I will have to choose another team. No way in hell I'll be down with any team he is on!

My aunt died today. Every memory that I have of her has all of a sudden come to my head. I always feared her as a child. She was a corrections officer for Rikers Island for all of my life. She carried herself like one too. Although we grew apart as I got older, you never want to see anyone in your family go. I guess that's where I am now. Trying to deal with the fact that I will never hear that voice again; and wishing I had heard it more often.