Today, someone crossed my mind that I haven't thought of a while. I'm thinking it was because Valentines day is coming. We had very good Valentines. He was a very good man period, hardworking and educated with a sense of humor to boot.Although he was no Denzel, he wasn't Flav either. I met him shortly after I started dating again after my divorce. I wasn't trying to settle down.I was too young or so I thought, to be bogged down in a "relationship" again. I wanted to have fun. Not to mention he was looking for a mother for his kid and I definitely didn't want to become instant mom at that time. I wanted to tell him, I did. But if I want to be completely honest here I wasn't woman enough, yet. I thought I could play. I ended up hurting a great guy.
The next time I saw him was at my brothers wedding.He happens to be related to my sister-in-law(the world is so small!) Always a gentleman he carried on polite conversation but, gave me the look.... Ladies you know the look. The one that makes you do a double take and think in your head ( Oh, it still like that?!!!) But, I had a frog...a big frog. Probably the bigggest damn frog ever!!!!, at the time. Who I thought was my Prince Charming ,so I brushed the look off and we parted ways again.
The last time I saw him, maybe a couple of years ago now, he was a marrried man, expecting his third child and living well. Although I really hurt him all those years before, his smile was genuine when he saw me. I was happy for him, for his happiness. I felt,well forgiven for the wrong I'd done.
I was just wondering about him today; as we do when we think of the ones that got away. Praying that he is still blessed and that maybe one day I will have the opportunity to meet someone like this again.
6 comments:
Wendy you're a beautiful person with lots to give. Don't fret about the one that got away. You weren't ready then.
WOW! What a gift to receive a genuine smile and the feeling of forgiveness.
Funny, I've thought of giving both to an ex before.
Has it helped you?
It did at the time Rosemarie. Having a conscience and growing up a bit helped alot too.
It's natural to wonder; especially when you see them after some time. The most important thing is that you've grown up and you wish him well in spite of the past.
I really enjoyed this post.
I think we all can relate to this point on some level. Your day is coming!
Btw-coming from Rosemarie's blog.
LOL "Although he was no Denzel, he wasn't Flav either." - geez. I love that line from the Boondocks. One of the funniest episodes ever! Liked the truthfulness in this post Wendy. Nicely done and here's to crossing a Prince Charming one day again.
That's basically the situation I'm in now. What makes it so bad for me was I let him go the first time then 2 1/2 years later I got a second chance and I screwed it up again. Now part of me wants a third chance. I know that shouldn't even be possible but we will see. It took me a while to realize he is who I want.
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