I am addicted to "The Sims". There, I said it. I find it rather strange that I am, because I didn't play video games before. Something about these little people whose lives I get to control has me hooked. I find myself getting mad at them and talking to the screen.. out loud. Hmm, I need to go out. I know. Talk to real people. I think I missed my calling as a designer though. I must say my sims are living lovely! I am sooooooooooooo sick of hearing about Micheal. Just when I thought it was safe here comes the other one. Lawd! Lawd! Lawd!... Haven't heard from Mickey. Hope he's dead and not sending money transfers to Disney for the rest of his relatives to come.

There is something in this house, mouse patrol is not working out. Still no evidence. But I hear something. Whatever this is has sense. He knows what poison is and has laughed at me. He is winning, and taking over my life. I am determined to beat him. I want him gone! I won't be tearing the house up like the movie Mousetrap but... I understand. Free loading little shit has to go. Yesterday turned out to be quite surprising for me. Just when I thought I was going to become the Valentines Day grinch. Frenchie has been sent packing by America Idol,Hmmm... I'm sure they are digging like hell to find something on Rueben and Kim ( the other two best singers).who just aren't the anorexic people America desires.

I had to add this ... I thought American Idol was about being the best singer, I was obviously wrong.

It's amazing what hunger will do. Dressed in my mouse wear ( hat , long sleeve shirt and jacket, boots and jeans) I grabbed my mighty broom and headed into the kitchen. If I saw anything move the plan would be to swat it with the broom and run like hell ( after a few screams I'm sure) .Everyone I told said if he hears you he won't come out. So there i was banging pots and making so much noise; my neighbors must have thought I'd lost my mind. I'm singing and stomping , steady cooking though...then I heard something. As if he was saying " Yeah I hear you. Now hear this!" I still have not seen any critters and neither did the exterminator. No evidence yet and I'm starting to think that T was playing a very cruel joke. Now my mind has gone overboard. I haven't been hungry though.

Day one of mouse patrol is uneventful. I see no evidence of a mouse, but T swears she saw one. Okay I can do this, I can . Just gotta build up my courage. The exterminator should be here tomorrow. I am so hungry, but so afraid to go into the kitchen ( where the last sighting was) ..Hey I could be onto something. Kind of like a fear factor, mouse diet... I need sleep.

I'm losing my hair. Of course not all at once. Little by little. Day by day. If it's going to fall out why can't it just all fall out? Then I could call it a day, go get a wig or some weave. No it has to torture me, damn near bald in one spot and healthy in another. I could not imagine why I would be missing or losing hair. People say it's stress, but none of my problems are new. I've been dealing with them, or so I thought. I guess I have somehow supressed them and now they are coming out along with my hair. Ain't that some shit? Why couldn't it come out in the form of weight loss? I wish I could sleep, but I think there is a mouse in the house. No sleeping going on here. I'm scared to death. Why did he have to come here? As if I don't have enough crap on my plate. Now along with my spotty head I can add bags under my eyes. And the hits just keep on coming...

My father is having surgery today to have something called "floaters" removed from his eye. I can't sleep!. I worry about him and my mother. Perhaps too much. When I called today he told me that I didn't need to come to the hospital. As if I could just go on about my day knowing that someone is poking around in his eye. Sure...that'll happen. I was angry with him, he sort of forgot to mention the surgery at all. If it weren't for my sister I would never know anything. When I talk to them everything is just fine. Parents...counting my blessings...

I don't consider myself a conservative. I like to think of myself as open minded. There is a 23 year old that is interested in me. Being 36, I will not date anyone under 30. That is just too much for me. 23 is completely out of the question. I know all the age is nothing but a number arguments. All of them are valid. If that is where your comfort level takes you and you are happy then I'm happy for you. It's just not for me. Am I destined to be single forever?

I read an article that suggested that in order to keep the divorce rate down women shouId share men. The article stated that the first woman could pick the second, perhaps someone she knew, like a best friend. That way you would know all about her and the two of you could keep him happy enough so that he wouldn't need a third. She said everyone would be happy. Physically, emotionally and financially. Of course I was sickened as I read it. I wondered if women could really buy into this. Then I watched change of heart yesterday. The fellow let his girlfriend know that he was seeing her and her best friend at the top of the show...Since they hooked up. He then went on a date with a woman. He kissed and groped all night long, then topped the night off in a hotel room with a friend of his and another woman she called. ( But they just talked all night). He insulted his girlfriend the entire show. So I'm thinking..SKID MARKS she's dropping him! Noooo, even after all this she says" Well even though she was sucking on his lips. I don't think anyone should do that but me.So I'm staying together." Hello, he just told your simple behind he's sleeping with your best friend. What?...What?!!!!...She had the nerve to be disappointed that he dropped her. The article came back to me then. I guess for some that would work..Damn, it just makes me wanna holla!

I'm a little more than determined to win the Tom Joyner's Fantastic Voyage cruise. All I have to do is find a way to corrupt everyone else's entry. So far I have stuck to my diet; although I am really craving some Chip Ahoys. Missy Elliott has been an inspiration to me. She looks damn good. People are hating ( of course) saying she has some work done. Hell if I could afford it I would too. I have been looking into chemical peels. Don't get it twisted ,I love the color of my skin. I'm not trying to look like Micheal Jackson, I just want an even tone. I have to read up a little more on it. I'm taking a half day today , a plane has crashed at the airport. I may not get what I need to get done, I have to go that way and I know how Charlotte over reacts to everything. It looks bad though, I hope no one was killed. Sending up prayers...