Well here I am. My neighbors decided to have a knock down drag out fight this morning and now I can't sleep. I guess I can thank them for the bags under my eyes tomorrow. They can thank me for not calling the police on their behinds. Going back to bed now...grumbling all the way.

I do not watch soap operas anymore. I haven't since Jessie and Angie were the main story line on All my children but, since I purchased The Sims I have been tuning in to the daily lives of the little people. I manage them quite well... If only my life were as simple.

Delete Mondays.

Ran into an ex today. Didn't mean to. He just spotted me before I could make my getaway. He waved hello and I waved back and kept walking. Why would anyone think this was a invitation to come over and attempt to converse? I just want to get my cucumbers for this salad I don't want to eat and go home. Yes, I'm still here, breathing. Imagine that. No, I haven't heard from your cousin...she owes me money,stole my property.Why on earth would she call? I don't care if you FINALLY got the divorce you told me you had when we met. No, I will not call you. I haven't in fours years...Any bells going off yet? Poof !...On a brighter note, those cowards I used to work for dropped their suit...That was smart. However, I will not be dropping mine. Why? 1) Because I have suffered far more than anyone should have to. 2) I have enough evidence to keep them in court for years to come. Wiz moment....So you wanted to meet the Wizard?

I need to walk more, I knew that already but, this weekend really let me know how much. While walking down South St. in Philly, looking for a spoken word Cafe named Tootie's my back suddenly decided to disconnect from my body. I don't know when it decided to, but it screamed defiantly, " I'M OUT! I'M NOT TAKING ANOTHER STEP!" I was bent over in front of a store praying for a seat, ANYWHERE. I wanted to cry. It was so embarrassing. Then, Sabastian takes my arm and tries to help me along, like some old woman. I wished the earth could open up. My brother,sister and nephew ( family yanno?) , no help at all. They had... jokes, but that's okay. At that point, I did not care. I did not laugh. I had walked 15 blocks and I couldn't take another step if I wanted to. The furthest I walk, is to my car. My back is hurting thinking about it. I have learned my lesson. I will start walking again. Besides, THE WALK , the trip was a good one. She is happy so am I. I didn't cry... My brother ( Mario Andretti) , got us home in record time. He has the need for speed. I didn't complain... much. This is a good time for us...blessings all around.

I kept my niece today for four hours. Four very long hours. I can't remember the last time I sang more nursery rhymes or played more games. Thank God for cable...she loves videos. That gave me a little time to re-group. She is phenomenal.She has her own little special language. Half the time I sat there looking like a fool, because I couldn't understand what the hell she was saying. However, the old stand by worked. " Show me baby. Show Aunt Wendy, what your talking about.". Worked like a charm, but I could have sworn she had the what's wrong with this one? face, as she showed me. She has so much energy. I, on the hand, do not. I have come to the realization that my time has passed for babies, toddlers or any little person. Although I enjoyed the time we had together, I am wasted. I could have kissed her mother's feet when she came to pick her up. Not her. As a matter of fact she took the hype-o-meter up a few notches when her mother came. I have to give it up for the REAL mothers again. You are truly special people.

Anyone who knows me knows that Denzel and I have a special bond. Most people can pick a time and date they want to see a movie, show up and view it. I want to be there before the lights dim. I want to be able to choose any seat I want. I want my popcorn and drink, there when the credits start rolling. I want absolutely no interruptions for the next 2 hrs. Not Shawn. I just cannot understand what it is about arriving at a movie 10 minutes into it that excites him. Wandering around in the dark, asking people to move is fun... This is not some no-name newcomer trying to win the hearts and minds of the viewing public. This is Denzel Washington. You don't just show up for Denzel...you prepare. Needless to say. I would not compromise. Was I being bitchy? Maybe, but I know D appreciates it.

I'm becoming a T.V. junkie, it's not hard to ignore the tube when you only have six channels, but now...damn cable. I am watching it more and more." Just when I think I'm out...". I have changed my thinking from the other day. Why should I change my entire personality because I was UNFORTUNATE enough to come into contact with assholes? If I do that then they win. It really bothers them to see me smile. They hate to hear that I'm still laughing,loving, singing. Enjoying my life! In spite of them. They want to hear that I am bitter and broken. I will not give them the satisfaction. I'm flashing these pearly whites.Laughing even louder... harder. It's mo' betta' baby. Life is too short. ..

Although I plan to someday write a book about my life.I am choosing at this time to hold off. For the happy ending. I want the story to be believable. The shit going on in life right now isn't. I can't even believe it. So I know no one else will. I'm up though. I'm trying to remain optimistic. If I don't, I don't know what I will do. That cannot be a good thing. I know that turns go around, always do the right thing, and the good will prevail and all that crap.. That's how things are supposed to be. That fairytale is quickly fading in my world. Sometimes I think you have to help the process along and I plan too. I plan to give the process a lot of help. I've grown tired of being Miss Nice when people are giving me their asses to kiss. Very, very tired....

Sunday comes so quickly... I had a good week. In spite of the litte adventures this week. My funny Valentines day. You make it harder than it has to be...and I can't tell you why. My sis will be moving in two weeks. I'm going to miss her, but it's time. I like the new just do it! commercial.I just thought of that, because I am thinking of her. Just do it! I watched the show Cheaters last night. People never cease to amaze me. Just when you think your life is crazy...