Grace

I thought this cat was too cute. His hair kind of looks like mine did today. What a week! I have been running since Wednesday. I know that I have to be thankful for all the food that I ate this week. ( Need to add a day to my workouts after this one) I shouldn'type this but, I am turkeyed out. Everyone has turkey left! I didn't cook any collards this year and a sis can't buy a bowl from anyone. I take that back, there is someone I know, but she has food left for a reason. I'm not going to risk it. I will just wait for Christmas.I hope everyone enjoyed there holiday. I put up my Christmas tree today, it's a beautiful little Charlie Brown tree. I went with blue and silver this year. Mostly because I found a box of silver bulbs that I never used. But hey, it's a good looking tree. I was going to try to take a picture but my puter is missing some sort of driver it tells me and I am not about to go through trying to fix it again. Even computer repair for dummies is too hard for me. People that know what they are doing and are constantly saying " All you have to do is..." make me sick. Nevermind the fact that they aren't willing to do it themselves or pay for the costly repairs when I tear it up. I finaly got MySpace page looking like something. Check me out www.myspace.com/degorgeousone ( Sorry blogger links are not working again) I'm still trying to add my blog to the page. Having some issues there. But if you have a space add me. A sis needs some friends.... Anyway, I had a great holiday, a very nice weekend. I can't complain.

Just Be Thankful For What You Got

I truly am. I hope you and yours have a very Happy Thanksgiving!

Games People Play

Every since the release of the latest gaming system by Nintendo the Wii I have seen people on the news that have lost their minds. I know that these games can be intense but damn, swinging on people. Now there was a story here where the people stood in line for hours waiting for Circuit City to open and when it finally did they were already sold out. Now that warrants someone getting a cussin'. It was cold. I'm sure somebody knew that system wasn't there. Let a sis know. Not that I am standing in line for any game.

I figure there must be something really special about a game that would make you do this. I have an Xbox. Confiscated by me because my nephew wanted to act a foolio in school after he got it.He never bought the grade up. So I got an Xbox and I played a few of the games it's all right. Too many buttons going on for me. ( I had the Commodore 64 /Atari games) I'm a Sims person. I happily play my little people and live vicariously for the moment, through them. Now there are times when I am playing for hours and I have to get up and face reality. I understand these people are hooked. I have a brother who doesn't even want to take a break to eat.

But come on, it's a game people! Shooting and robbing folks. What is really going on? Then my brother called and told me they are selling for more than quadruple the price on Ebay. Oh,I get it. It's an investment, with a quick turn around on profit. Still doesn't justify all the madness. But now I can understand why some choose to stand in line for it 5 hours before the store even opened.

Open Up My Heart

-Just one word can make a difference in what I do Lord

Ever have a pastor deliver a sermon you needed? Right after he announced what the sermon is about you thought he'was going to point and say, " This is for you so, pay attention." I'm stubborn though. I sometimes don't want to hear it. That inner voice, the doubting Thomas,that makes you turn a deaf ear to the truth. I've been concerned about a few things recently. I won't go into detail, just life lessons. I've learned that God always answers prayers. Always. The answer comes sometimes as soon as we pray. As soon as you get up you know. But we don't listen, we want to wait and see if another answer is coming. If you pray harder that he will change his mind. Kind of like when I was a child and continued to beg my parents for something, hoping against hope that the negative answer would change. Finally my mother would have enough and she would say " Not another word." Then give me the look.Trust me, that would be the end of that.

Being the human I am, I sometimes need God to give me the look. His final word on the subject. Then I know what has to be done. I find myself saying aloud "Okay Father, I get it." Whenever I go against what's in my heart, and with my hard head it's not right. And,we all know what a hard head gets ( Or at least used to get back in the day). I have no one to blame because I got the answer and ignored it. But I'm thankful for his final word. Whether it be yes or no. For him taking the time to listen, to his spoiled, stubborn child. So thankful that He guides me until I'm sure.

Dreamgirls

This was a play. Now it's going to be a motion picture. I wanted so badly to see this play while on Broadway. I never did. When the opportunity presented itself I chose something else, thinking I would go another time. Last year I had the chance again to go see a revised cast. I didn't go, I wanted still to see the orignal. And since they weren't going to be there niehter would I. I'm not taking anything from the wonderful cast memebers. Through the years I have heard rave reviews for different cast members. But nothing beats an original. No one on this earth can sing And I am telling you like Jennifer Holiday. I must be the only person on earth who never got to see, but knows every song for this play.I had to sing I am changing at an event for school.In the process of learning the song. I learned the songs for the enitre play. As I listened I imagined the scenes in my head. I hope the film does the play justice. I eagerly await.
I don't usually see Jaime and shout, "He's Fine!" But brotha is looking pretty good in this shot.







I did finally get the chance to see part of the original cast, thanks to You tube. The best part... It was a wish fulfilled for me. By the time she hit the last note,I had tears in my eyes.

Smiling Faces

You ever find yourself hanging out with someone and wish you weren't. I went to a reunion of sorts with old co-workers. We were a great group of people when I worked at this company and I still keep in contact with most of them. But, there is always one. I never called her, never returned any of her calls and avoided her at work. Seems like she would get the message. She doesn't. She is an older woman, you know the one at work who takes on the motherly role. Thinks she has knowledge on every subject and tries to tell you what's up, from her view. I have a mother and the advice that she did give to others was wack. So I just always thought she was aggravating as hell. My grandmother used to call her type uncouth. She will ask the most personal questions, in front of everyone. She will invite herself into conversations that she is not involved in. She will tell all your business.
I take awhile to cozy up to a person. I like to watch and see if you are the type of person I want to be bothered with. If I get a bad vibe from you in the beginning, it usually turns out that was for a reason. That was the vibe I always got from her.
So, I'm making my rounds, you know working the room and I see her. I try to make a beeline to the kitchen to avoid her ass and I'm cut off. I can't turn around and go back because my girl is behind me. Aw, Damn. So I'm stuck. This is how the convo went.
She: " Hey girl, check you out. You've lost weight huh?"
Me: (Dry as hell) " Yeah a little something."
She: " Yeah,you look good. I just saw him, in the grocery store the other day"
Me: ( Still moving) "Really?"
She: "Yeah, he's looking good too. He still working for? Blah, blah blah.
Me: How does she know who he works for? I never told her. " Yes."
She: " Y'all been together for a minute. When y'all getting married?"
Me: I swear the whole room stopped. Like that old E.F. Hutton commercial. Most of the people in this room know he and I have split.At least three of them know this fool. And if she knows where he works . She knows that. I know she does.Now,I am just done. " Why?"

By, this time I have kept walking and finally made it to the kitchen. She is behind me and my girl is behind her. My girl tries to change the subject but, she is being persistent. I grab a cup and start walking through the kitchen back into the living room ignoring her. I am trying really, really hard not to tell this wench off. Although my respect for elders is weening. It is afterall, a party. I find the bartender, I need a drink. I turn around and see my girl has taken the focus off me, and I say a silent prayer. For the rest of the night I avoid her like the plague. While getting my coat she comes into the room and says " Girl don't you let ex make you sick".
Me: "What?"
She: " I just heard y'all split up.( Sure you did) That's why you are losing weight."
Me: ( staring incredulously) " Not that it's any of your business. But that is not why I've lost weight"
She: ( Actually reaching to hug me,until I put the breaks on her ass) "What's wrong with you?"
Me: "You". This broad is crazy. Then I did the best Dominique Devereaux impression that I could and walked away. She had the nerve to look hurt.

Sunshine

I was saddened yesterday and shocked at the death of Gerald Levert. He and I are the same age. I don't know anyone my age that has passed and it bought my own mortality home. I cannot imagine my parents having to go through what his family is. The local radio station decided to honor him by playing his songs. I listened for awhile then had to turn it off when they played " Wind Beneath My Wings". It was just to depressing for me to listen to. I understand that we all must leave here at some point, I just don't think about it too often.

I have been blessed. I know this. I haven't had to deal with the trauma of death. I have only had to attend one funeral in my life. I can't dwell on this too long.When it's your time, it's your time and there is nothing you can do about it. So I am renewed in life and spirit. Thankful again for all that I have, for the ability to have it. I can only strive to be the best me I can be. Richard Pryor as Mud Bone said Always put a little sunshine on your face.

Today I did.

Really Gonna Miss You

Another remarkable talent. Mr. Gerald Levert sending up my prayers for his family and friends. May he rest in peace.

Who would I be

Why do parents think you don't know them as well as they know you? My parents will tell me bold face lies and think I don't know it. My father is the type to get up and move around, do something. Just for the sake of doing it. I called them yesterday and today. I asked my mom yesterday, "What's dad doing"?. "Oh, he's laying down". Okay no biggie, I knew they had an adventure at the polls so maybe he was just tired. Today he was laying down again. So I asked "What's wrong with him?" My mother quickly answered " Nothing". Yes there is, my father has serious backpain, but he won't let that stop him from doing things he shouldn't. Like climbing onto the rooof to clean the gutters. His pride will not allow him to call my brother who lives 10 minutes away to help with anything. I know if he is in the bed, there is something wrong with him. But they don't think I know that I have the most hardheaded parents on this earth. Now when I visit them, he will try to get up and move around as if nothing is bothering him. He will claim he stayed up late watching over my mother and that's why he is tired. I will allow him to believe that I believe him. I will allow him to shift the conversation from his health to my own or my mothers. Then just before I leave I will tell him to take care of himself, and remind him that I have hidden cameras in his house and restraints on order. He will laugh and promise me he will. You just gotta love them.

In other news...Federline asked for sole custody of the kids. Hmm, I wonder why he never asked for Shar's kids?

So Gone

I have been trying to post all day! My thoughts may be scattered from little sleep so please forgive any ramblings. Today the American voter has sent a clear message.( I'm tired of this shit) This is what I try to get young people to understand, that their votes can make a difference. Of course no one knows if there will really be a change but that's why you have to understand the issues. At least the majors ones. Do I agree with all Democrats, no. Do I agree with all Republicans , Independents? No. But I weigh which candidate is closes to my thinking and vote for them. One young lady told me she would vote when there was a black candidate running for president. Well Unless Obama decides to run which he has not made mention of, that is unlikely, but what do you do in the meantime? Complain. How can you complain about something you made no effort to change?

Breaking news***Rumsfeld resigns***- Didn't see that one coming.Oh, the shock is killing me why on earth would he do that? Now we play the waiting game for Va. I hope it doesn't turn out like FL.

Every ten minutes there is a commercial on my television for a male enhancement product. Damn fellas, what's really going on? One commercial claims to have sold over one million. Well no matter we at least won't have to wonder if a man will be thinking about his tiny, shrinking, dysfunctional penis rather than the issues, in the top House seat.( We're getting closer ladies) Congratulations Madam Speaker Nancy Pelosi.