So Gone

I have been trying to post all day! My thoughts may be scattered from little sleep so please forgive any ramblings. Today the American voter has sent a clear message.( I'm tired of this shit) This is what I try to get young people to understand, that their votes can make a difference. Of course no one knows if there will really be a change but that's why you have to understand the issues. At least the majors ones. Do I agree with all Democrats, no. Do I agree with all Republicans , Independents? No. But I weigh which candidate is closes to my thinking and vote for them. One young lady told me she would vote when there was a black candidate running for president. Well Unless Obama decides to run which he has not made mention of, that is unlikely, but what do you do in the meantime? Complain. How can you complain about something you made no effort to change?

Breaking news***Rumsfeld resigns***- Didn't see that one coming.Oh, the shock is killing me why on earth would he do that? Now we play the waiting game for Va. I hope it doesn't turn out like FL.

Every ten minutes there is a commercial on my television for a male enhancement product. Damn fellas, what's really going on? One commercial claims to have sold over one million. Well no matter we at least won't have to wonder if a man will be thinking about his tiny, shrinking, dysfunctional penis rather than the issues, in the top House seat.( We're getting closer ladies) Congratulations Madam Speaker Nancy Pelosi.

Stupid

It's early, and I'm blogging because I'm awake. I should be sleeping now. I sometimes feel I'm surrounded by people who cannot walk and chew gum at the same time. I have people calling me for the dumbest shit you ever heard. I want to hang up, but that would be rude wouldn't it? I feel it's rude to call me knowing that I am asleep. I'm always asleep at this time.So why call me and ask if I was? Why not say, ' I'm sorry to wake you but, I'm retarded as hell and I need your help.I'm going back to bed and wake up on the other side. Today is my brothers birthday and I want to be in a good mood.

Reasons to be Cheerful

God loves me.My mothers surgery went great. I lost 7 more pounds. I completed 2 more chapters. My stitches healed nicely. My hair looks good. My family is fine. My peeps love me. I can still turn heads. I'm not pregnant. Today is my nephew's birthday. He's not going to be a father. My computer works. I had my carpets cleaned.I got a free movie. I whipped ass in Spades this weekend.I like asparagus afterall. My ex is beggin( rollin eyes). My bills are paid. I gave to charity. The check really was in the mail. I'm healthy. I finsihed another book. Shout outs to my girl Kathy...who is another inspiration for me to get it done. And this a storyline with a twist that you can appreciate. So if you happen to see it in a bookstore (Any store or online) I highly recommend it,not because I know her.Because she did her thing.
It's Monday ya'll. I'm here. God loves me.

Hypothetically

Tonight I watched a show called Intervention on A&E . It followed an aspiring artist and her boyfriend ( also very talented) going through his crack addiction.His parents had already put him out, so his girlfriends parents took him in.Unfortunately, I know a few substance abusers. I know that they try to hide that fact from me. I had a boyfriend once who used to come up with the most elaborate excuses for his disappearing acts and his money as well.Try as I did to understand, I couldn't and our relationship failed. I mention this program because it actually followed this crack addicted man, while he was doing the drugs.It showed all of the pain,irrational behavior, paranoia, violence and heartache he went through , because of this drug. I think this program should be shown in schools across america. Kids don't understand the effect drugs have on a life and the lives of those around you. They don't understand how much one can lose; family, job, friends, everything that matters to you. Even if they do know, they never think it can happen to them, because they are strong. I found the content of this one hour program so gripping.It didn't end with everyone smiling, birds chirping and a happy ending beyond the rainbow. It did leave you knowing that the struggle continues.

On a lighter note... Ms. Bassett looks beautiful in her ad for Oil of Olay Definity.

If Lovin' You Is Wrong

Recently I mentioned that my soon to be 17 year old nephew was going to be a father. Not anymore. His girlfriend miscarried the child. I haven't spoken to him about it. I know that he does NOT want to hear my mouth, I haven't had the opportunity to speak with the young lady either so I don't know how she feels about it one way or the other. Being that she is older than my nephew I am inclined to believe she wanted the child. I know that I should feel something for her because her body, mind and spirit went through a life altering change. But I don't, I don't feel sorry for the lost. I tend to be liberal minded most of the time. Where my family is concerned that changes. If he were my child, I would have questioned from the beginning the motives of this 19 year old wanting to be with a 16 year old. Forget that, if he were closer I would have. I know he looks older, however the fact is he is only 16. I understand this was kudos for my nephew to say in front of his boys that he has an "older woman" with a car and an apartment. What is the upside for her though? She gets to tutor him. Given, the boy is nice looking, tall, athletic,talented, smart ( except for this stupid shit) but also still at home,16 and jobless. Which all leads me to think she is not the smartest cookie. I pray my nephew is more cautious in the future. I truly pray that this scared him so badly he never wants to have sex again. Of course, I know it will happen. But, I can still pray on it. He has so much life ahead of him. Fatherhood will come in time. I'm just so happy that it won't be right now. He is still a baby himself, in a grown mans body. The last thing on earth he needed was a child. He has so much more to accomplish, starting with a high school diploma . So by the grace of God this was not his time.

Ain't No Sunshine-DMX

Following Luke's villains post and the comment he made about me being coldhearted, I decided to make a list of movies where the character needed a killin. You know, the one's who got what they deserved and you cheered when it finally happened.

Kevin Bacon's character and his coworkers raped and tortured boys under their care...He needed a slower more painful killin'

For killing a man who could completely exonerate the main character the warden and the guard...Needed an OZ type killin

Kevin Spacey put Brad Pitts wife's head in box,that he had to open. Not to mention the other people he sadistically killed..He needed a Killin quick No help for this one.

These animals raped, beat, tortured, they even urinated on then tried to hang Sam Jackson's little girl...They needed a slow, medieval killin', bring em' back kill them again

These cops killed damn near everyone in the picture.Although they needed a killin; I do wish they went to prison.

Charles S. Dutton, Gary Busey, Rutger Hauer and others decide to hunt homeless people for sport. Ice-T gave them what they deserved Very imaginative Killin'

For killing 50's mother because he was a jealous fool and for setting him up to be murdered, Majestic( Alabeze' from Oz) ...needed a vengeful,Godfathertype killin'

Now many, many people say he had to go. He was just too rotten. I don't think he really needed a killin. But of course,I'm biased. He did deserve alot of prison time though.


The following people played the character so well you wondered if they were acting. Now maybe the character didn't need a killin, but they sure needed for someone to 'Set around and wop their asses"
Steve Harris-Diary Of A Mad Black Woman
Lawrence Fishburne-What's Love Got to Do With It

Mr. Telephone Man

Appointment: A meeting set for a specific time or place; A fixed mutual agreement for a meeting

I decided to try digital phone technology. I mean it can't be beat for the price and I knew I would save a lot in long distance. The problem is actually getting it connected. I don't know what it is about cable services nationwide, they think you have nothing better to do with your time than wait on them. Between 8-12 or 1-5. Who has time for that? I had to reschedule twice. There won't be a strike three( As DMX would say). What they should say is:

Thank you for calling XYZ cable. We appreciate your business. We apologize for any inconvenience in advance because you will be inconvenienced. We have two scheduled appointment times. Or should we say timeframes for one of our technicians to grace your home with their presence. Please keep in mind that although we say 8-12 or 1-5, we don't really mean it.That timeframe is not guaranteed. Our techs may or may not show up depending on whether they feel like it or not. We just need you to sit put, it's only 4 hours. In other words wait and see. We do not care if you need to go to work, run errands,or any other matter because quite frankly you called us. Now with that said, how can we help you today?

If they just put it out there like that you can make your own decision from jump.

Thriller

Happy Halloween! I didn't buy any candy this year. I haven't had any trick-o-treaters come to my door since I moved here. Maybe the previous resident never gave out any and the kids think they still live here. I miss this time with my neices and nephew. They are too old to go now. Or too cute, pick one. But me, I was still trick-o-treating in 11th grade. It was so much fun. Not just getting all that candy. Just hanging out with my friends and buggin out. One year this came out...


Not only had my friends and I learned every step, we put on the thriller show often. ( I still know the steps) Since it was halloween we figured what better time to demostrate our moves. We were on a new block that year. Just as we were getting our groove heading up this driveway to the door. These things ( people of course) we found out much later. Started coming up out of the ground. Talk about scattering. Yeah it's funny now. It wasn't then. This family decided that they would be ghouls and scare the unsuspecting when they got close to the door. To this day, I cannot tell you what happened to my candy. I can tell you, I honestly could have beaten Flo-Jo that night. Those were the days man. I wish kids still had fun like that.

If You Believe

I took the weekend to read this novel. I know I'm a Johnny come lately. I just never got around to it. Mr. Brown has brought the streets of Paris, Rome and London tothe reader vividly. He leaves no small detail out.I've always been interested in history and puzzles so this book was perfect. I found it to be a very good story...I was really into the book and found that I could not put it down. I had to know what new clue would be waiting for the main characters Langdon and Neveu. I had to know what Silas would do to them to get those clues and who was the Teacher.I love plot twist and turns and this book had many. I knew the Roman Catholic Church was upset over this book. However, I never really knew why. Honestly, I did not. I am not Catholic so I figured, it must be something within that religion, something about the Opus Dei. I vaguely remembered seeing something on television about them. I was happily turning pages. Almost midway through the book a character named Leigh Teabing was introduced. He and Langdon were colleagues and they found themselves having to explain what the Holy Grail was. I will not not go into the details, I don't want to spoil it for anyone that has not read it. I will say that I now understand why the Roman Catholic Church is upset. I can understand how any Christian based faith would be upset about this book. Although, (God is not through with me yet), I was raised in the Baptist church. I do consider myself spiritual and I believe in the God,Jesus Christ and the Bible.After reading this characters explanation of the what the Holy Grail is, I lost the zeal I had for this novel. Funny thing faith, anything that challenges our personal beliefs has to be wrong.That is exactly what I felt, that I was wrong for reading this novel. I tried to dismiss that feeling by telling myself that it's just a historically based book of fiction. I consider myself open minded,and an author myself. I know how far ones imagination can carry them. I am a strong believer that you can not argue any points you know nothing about. You may try but you will only be made to look foolish so I finished the book. My criminal justice professor told us to never ask a question you do not know the answer to, the result could be devastating. I understand that you may take from this novel anything that you want. But trust that my answer will always be... MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!

Irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute

This is the hook of Beyonce's latest. I lke it. I understand where she is coming from. Of course there is always a song that we can relate to. Some artist pens a lyric that touches you in a way that makes you think the song was written for you. Of course I'm more Old School. I'm a I Will Survive type of woman. Although these words come from someone's pain, surrounded by music they make us all feel a little better sometimes. For that I am thankful. Happy Friday!