Easy Being Green

- "I'm green and I guess that's just the way I'm supposed to be."



How many strong,beautiful women do you know who are overweight? ThoseFAT( yes I said it,with an F. I'm one of them so I can call it what it is) women that have told society that what they think is a healthy weight for them is bullshit. Gorgeous ladies doing the damn thing. I know a few. But, until I read my doctors chart ( being nosey)...Don't get me wrong I'm 5'2". I knew I needed to shed a few pounds but according to height/weight ratio, I am OBESE. I rationalized that people carry weight differently, and there is no way on earth( even on the best crack you can get a receipt for) that I will get to 110-131(MAX) range.After seeing those words Obeseblah,blah,blah, obese blah,blah,blah obese...I told myself well then dammit that's what I'm supposed to be. I became frustrated with the whole damn process,why should I do this to myself? So I'm not a 7 so what? I'm not a 20 either. Damn you Lean Cuisine!!! I want a pizza, I want Breyers Mint Chocolate chip and Chip Ahoy cookies. I want a Pepsi! With all the caffiene allowed by law...
Obese...Ha!, I started thinking these people are crazy, and trying to make me crazy too...I had given up. Then I thought of the Big, Beautiful ladies that I know. And these sisters are fine,accomplished, fierce women, and they seem truly content in life and love.They can dress their big asses off and the confidence these sisters have is admirable. Then I thought of my breathing lately when I have to walk one step further than my car door. I thought of all the different sizes that hang in my closet. I thought of the heart disease and cancer that is in my immediate family and realized that although it may be easy. I can't be green.

Lean Cuisine's Tucson chicken is actually pretty good and so was the cup of Breyers instead of the bowl.

Party All The Time

My girls birthday was this past week so when she said, " Wendy you should come up here." I thought cool. A mini vacation. I could go chill in VA and get my mind right. The plan was to leave work at 3 and be there around 7. Seven-thirty the latest. When I pulled out at FIVE I realized that I may not make the party.Yet, I pressed on, despite the fact that she moved from Oceanview and I haven't been to the new place. So here I am trying to read my directions and drive. All while noticing that my surroundings look similar to that movie Wrong Turn. Not one to be caught by deranged,cannibals, I decided to toss the directions and find a main Hwy.
My friend has just turned 44 and I swear she could pass for 30. I told her she should bottle whatever she is working with. She makes me sick. She is a karaoke fool so of course her party was held at a Karaoke Bar. Sis can blow too.When that ended we went back to her place and sat up until 4 A.M. catching up. This was her weekend so I told her whatever you want to do, I'm game. She decided she wanted to go to the some museum and Colonial Williamsburg(Where she basically walked me to death). Did I MENTION I came from work? But, I didn't want to be the pooper left at home,so I went. On the way back she decided we should go see Spiderman. Which I thought was cool but my body was like. What the hell is wrong with you? After the movie, we went out to eat, then back to Karaoke. Damn I'm tired. My girl is not only older than me but she also has much more energy. Even after all this, she went into work today. I don't have to be back until tomorrow and I'm already thinking of excuses.

I used to be able to hang with her like this back in the day. Not anymore. When I got home today I slept for five hours straight. And I still feel tired. I know I burned both ends this weekend but, somehow I feel like I'm losing cool points.

We Are Family

Today my parents are coming for lunch. I asked them over for dinner. But my father feels if he is out after 6p.m. he will have to shoot someone. My father is the original Angry man, He has mellowed over the years but even at 69 he will still kick ass and take names. We've had our difficulities, but I've come to realize that it's just because we are so much alike. Today he will talk about things I already know ( because he has told me) about my home and safety. He will remind me I should lose weight and that I should really make an earnest effort to quit smoking altogether and stop bullshitting with my life. <- his words. I will say that I know, agree with him and hopefully he will let it rest.

My mother will try to redecorate my home. Telling me how whatever would look so much better over here or there. I will of course disagree. She will also talk about her head so bad that I will be hoodwinked into doing it for her. I really don't mind. I love her to death and have spoiled her rotten. I guess turns go round. She will mention my weight too. But not as bluntly as my father. She will joke about it.

My brother will join in. I have to say in this family you need a thick skin because we are not tongue biters. My brother will bring his daughter and I will try to make some sense of what she is saying. I thought that speed french she spoke was cute at 3 and 4 but now, at almost 9 that shit is bordering on the special.
I miss my sis the most, she is the most wonderful, selfless, artistic, beautiful person I know. And I'm not saying this because she has patterned herself after me. I say it because it's the truth and I miss her laughter when my family is all together.

I am blessed to have them all in my life. Even when they work the one nerve I have left. I know it's all love.

Juicyfruit

You know when you cannot eat, everything looks good. I have been noticing food in commercials that aren't even about food. While surfing I happened upon this brother G. Garvin on BET's Turn Up The Heat. Now I know good and well that I am not going to cook one single thing this man is making. But damn, he does it well. I'm not usually attracted to his type but I find him sexy. Maybe it's the man in the kitchen cooking thing. Or, maybe it's the fact that I'm hungry as hell and anyone in the kitchen cooking is sexy to me right now.

Just Because

I've never had a toothache before. Although this kid looks cuteI don't believe missing teeth would have the same appeal on me. So I have always taken very good care of them. Imagine my surprise while chewing when one of my fillings came out. Well,parts of it. I don't believe surprise is the word I'm looking for here. Unbearable, indescribable pain would cover it... maybe...It's the sort of pain that stops you dead in your tracks. It stopped me from chewing that's for damn sure.

I have a friend that has been dealing with a rotten tooth for years. He is too scared to visit the dentist because a while back he had some work done and the pain that followed was worst than the original problem. So, instead he never chews on the right side of his mouth, and says that he will never trust a dentist again. I guess that works for him. I however, am taking my ass to the dentist as fast as I can. Since it happened I have been treading lightly on the offending side of my mouth but I couldn't imagine eating this way for the rest of my life. Or brushing the way I have been forced to,not when there are licensed people to help me.That is insane!I don't ever want to feel that type of pain again.

Between this tooth, a week of watching Roots and the Imus(Anus) bullcrap, this hasn't been a the best time to be around me.

Jesus Is Love

Happy Easter!!!

Straighten Up and Fly Right!

I just have to blog right now or I will scream. This woman came into my office today with her PJ's on. Yeah they were cute but they were still made to wear in the HOUSE. Lawd!!!Then she had no bra on. People she was swinging everywhere, Didn't comb hair on her head...nothing. Just got up and came as she was.I wanted to smack her ass into next week as my mother would say. But, I was afraid I'd have to see it again.

I didn't have much to say. My WTF??? expression, said it all. She said she didn't want to miss her appointment.

Tears

I end each weekend the very same way. In tears. Watching Extreme Home Makeovers does it to me each week. The expressions on the recipients faces touch me every time. It may sound a bit sappy but, this show reminds me that in the midst of it all there are good people. There are deserving people.People still genuinely, truly care about others. And you know what? I don't even mind the tears I shed.

Me Time

I'm on the hunt for a laptop. My puter has been on crazy( do what I wanna do) mode and it's making me crazy. I have read so many different articles about processors, ram,cd/dvd+ rw and drive space, I feel I can teach a class. All I want to do is get on the Internet, blog, write and be able to play my Sims, without the screen flashing red. I either want too much or not enough. Since my puter became completely possessed I feel lost. It's a damn shame. I didn't have a computer growing up, I didn't need to read blogs, or write my stories in WORD and create disk for them and I got along just fine. Hell, up until eight years ago I didn't even own a computer. Now without one, it's like losing my right hand. I'm on a borrowed laptop now and it's giving me my fix but I want MY own. Tomorrow I will take all of the knowledge I have acquired this past week and try to put it to good use.
I've been working on my me time, for some reason I can't get it together. I'm just tired. I've been burning both ends since I got this promotion and my body is just telling me to slow down fool! Eventually I will, one way or the other. I started the wieght watchers point system and I am eating a hell of a lot more now. Counting everything is working my nerves right now though. I also promised myself I would go to the doctor but I have one of those hard heads that will not go until something is falling or about to fall off. It's a bad habit that I need to break.
I'll get it together.

They sent another great singer home and left that Sanjay guy on Idol. Arrgh,America please wake up! This child cannot carry a tune, to save his life. He should have been at home watching like me. I'm wondering how the hell he made it through auditions. If they get rid of Lakeisha, that's it for me.

I don't know if you are familiar with this story Shaquandathis is another sad, absolutely ridiculous case of JustUs Please leave this young lady a few words of encouragement.

Well, I gotta return this thing..wish me luck in my search...Stay Blessed

I'd Like To Teach The World To Sing

- In perfect harmony...

I like American Idol, I have been watching since the beginning. This year is a complete mess. Some of the people they sent home they should call back.Why did it have to be guys against girls? Couldn't it have been all women, or here's an idea... the best singers! Now last night they sent a young man home, given he did forget the words. But if he forgot ALL the words he still sounded better than the young man they let stay.

I just wonder what people are thinking when they vote sometimes. When I vote, I vote for the best singer.
I just had to get that off my chest...

What's going on people, sorry I've been missing. I have been very busy. I am still reading I just can't always post.

When will they stop talking about Anna? I'm sorry she died, I feel for her family but dayammmmn. What did this woman do that requires so much airtime? They didn't devote this much time to Rosa Parks, Coretta King. And Maury Povich can tell you if you're the daddy in 1 hour, what is taking them so long?

Today a little boy( around 10) told his mother to shut up. It was so funny, I mean what he said to his mother was not funny. The faces of all the black people in earshot was funny as hell. She was embarrassed, and her face was so red. I couldn't feel sorry for her though, she brought it on herself.

We had a fire at work. People will move then won't they? Thankfully everyone is fine. The firemen said that we could go back inside but it was still too smokey. I don't know what he was talking about, I guess breathing that crap all the time makes you immune.

I need some serious me time...